Monday, December 31, 2007

Auld Lang Syne

Since 2001, New Years Eve has been hard. I wonder each year if it wouldn't be better to embrace the sadness of this day rather than spend it struggling to not be sad. As in past years, I'll undoubtedly eat and drink too much and then resolve not to drink until next New Years, which usually makes it until the next dinner party.

Dad wrote that the lyrics that summed up this year were:
A long December
and there’s reason to believe
maybe this year
will be better than last.
lyrics by Adam Duritz

I'll add these:
The water is wide, I cannot cross over
And neither have I wings to fly.
Build me a boat that can carry two,
And both shall row, my love and I.


Rex Saxi said...

Yes, it's been six years for me, too, and this year is harder than most. My grandmother passed on November 12, so I feel like no-one's left!!

Hang in there--my prayers are with you and your sister.

Listening to Sixteen Blue by The Replacements kinda helps.

Mimi Lenox said...

I think it is better to embrace the sadness and let it somehow do its healing. Because it does. I will tell you that thirty years ago - I think you may know this already - I lost two babies in one year - one in the spring and one in late fall. And I've never stopped wondering about my children (I know one was a girl....oh how I would have loved to dress her and be prissy with her..) but I've never stopped missing them, grieving for them. And then there was another the next year that did not make it to birth. I then had my only baby boy who is now 28, and of course, he owns my heart. Every spring I feel what you are feeling today and every fall the same. What you are going through on this day is perfectly normal.

As I've said many times, you are a phenomenal and admirable mother. It would be unnatural for you to feel otherwise on this day.
So, let yourself feel whatever it is you feel. It is remarkable that you so bravely own it.

Bud Weiser, WTIT said...

Happy New Year!

It's gotta get better. Love to all.